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Fear or Love?

Every day I go out for a 1-hour walk that takes me through some streets in the neighbourhood, around the border of a soccer field, along a set of railroad tracks, and across the tracks to a park with a hill. Along the way I pass a lot of garbage thrown on the ground, and it occurred to me one day that I could just pick up a bit of the garbage each time I went out, and drop it in the garbage cans enroute.


What's interesting is how I feel when I'm doing this, which is based simply on my current level of consciousness and whatever crazy thoughts that pop into my head each moment.


Sometimes I'm frustrated at the "inconsiderate repeat offenders", wondering why they do it, and wondering judgmentally if they drop their garbage in their yards at home too. Sometimes I wonder what other people are thinking when they see me pick up the garbage... that I'm a tree hugger, or maybe that they'll feel guilty and start picking up litter as well. Sometimes I think that it's nice to pick up the garbage, since it makes for a nicer view for my walk the next day. Sometimes it feels nice to do my little part in paying back the city for access to a lovely little park with a hill (a big bonus in a very flat city in the middle of a flood plain). Sometimes it feels nice to be kind to the Earth. And sometimes I don't think much about it... I'm just enjoying the walk, thinking other stuff, and picking up garbage along the way (and sometimes NOT picking up garbage along the way).


In each of these fleeting thoughts, I'm thinking primarily out of fear or love.


Whenever I'm feeling negative thoughts (anger, frustration, judgment, self-righteousness, comparison to others in any way), it's just a result of my temporary insecurity in the moment... The need to be better than others who litter, or the need to be better because I am a good citizen who picks up litter, and ultimately, the need to be worthy. I am acting from the fear of not being enough, and therefore needing to be better. I am acting from the temporary feeling of being separate and disconnected from love and life and nature and humanity.


Whenever I'm just "doing for the sake of doing", without comparison to others, and without seeing my behaviour as being in service or making me a better person, it's just a result of my temporary security in the moment. I'm realizing my intrinsic worthiness, and I'm simply acting out of love for being alive and present in that moment. I am acting from the temporary feeling of being connected to love, life, nature, and humanity.


And so it goes for every single action in my life. Fear or Love. Fear or Love.


The great thing about understanding the Three Principles is the realization that all my thoughts (whatever they are), are completely made up, and are not "who I am" at the core of my being. My insight into Mind showed me clearly that at our core essence we are all worthy, all equal, all connected, and all perfectly-imperfect human beings, no matter who we are, or what we do, or whatever crazy thoughts we think up in the moment and innocently believe.


And so, if I have a bad feeling in any moment, I can notice it and realize it for what it is, and either let it go, or at least know it will eventually go away on it's own. And I don't have to feel bad about thinking it. It's just a natural part of being "human" (an amazing thing in and of itself). And when I see that, and feel that, I automatically think and act more from love and less from fear.


Another interesting thing is that the idea to pick up litter didn't initially come from a place of fear. On the sliding scale between fear and love, it was more toward the latter, just feeling good one day, enjoying the walk, and wanting to make for a nicer view along the way.


And yet, the idea could just as easily have been motivated by fear, motivated by my made-up anger and deeper need to know how much better I was than the "degenerate reprobates" who litter. LOL Cool


The resulting action is the same (picking up litter), but ultimately, where do I want to keep living in my head and my heart? How do I want to keep relating to life and to my fellow humans? In fear or in love? I think I'll take the latter instead. Well, at least whenever it occurs to me, I will. In my inevitable up and down humaness, I'll still have plenty of moments of illusory separation and resulting judgment ahead. LOL! 

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05.09 | 16:09

Lovely to hear from you Sharon! And thank you for the question. This website has limited space for comments, so I hopefully it's OK to send you an email. 😊

05.09 | 05:52

Hi Jonelle, just started reading this site-thank you so much. I have a question I hope you can answer for me: are emotions & feelings the same thing?

07.08 | 12:02

How beautiful. Your friend is so lucky to have you. ❤️

07.08 | 12:00

Thank you Andie! Would be lovely to catch up! ❤️

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