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I Am Me!

I have lived a life full of many perceived regrets: avoiding discomfort, not facing fears, not taking chances. Fortunately, when I came across the understanding of the Principles and got knocked upside the head with the illusion of all thought, I realized that all those regrets were made up. And now, much of the time, I can see them simply as choices made (or not made), actions that didn't happen, or simply different actions that happened instead; nothing more, and nothing less. Regret was simply a meaning I had made out of some "non-experiences" at the time, and continued to label, each time they were re-remembered.


But I saw something a little deeper today.


What if I had done every single thing that was previously considered as a regret for not doing? What if throughout my life, I had embraced every discomfort, faced every fear, and taken every single chance? How would that make me any different than who I am today, at the very core of my soul?


The answer is, that it wouldn't. I would still feel like "Jonelle", the same very familiar person who has been along on the ride with me through every second of my experience of life. I would still feel like the the "Jonelle" who is sitting here with me on my couch writing this note.


It's likely that from the perceived perspective of "doing", or daring to achieve the impossible, I might have had a few more interesting stories to remember and tell. I might have had a wider net of experiences and people to know. But, whatever I had done, it wouldn't have made me any less or any more than who I already am, who I was when I was born, and who I will be when I die.


Underneath all my experiences (and non-experiences) of life, I am just the very familiar-to-me, "me". And for today at least, that happens to be wonderfully comforting.


Perhaps you can politely remind me of this, when I forget it all again tomorrow. 😊

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Steve | Reply 28.06.2015 12:48

I think this is a lovely 'seeing', a lovely insight into the truth of who "Jonelle" is. And I can only imagine how comforting it feels to you, Jonelle! Thanks

Jonelle 28.06.2015 17:55

Thanks Steve! :)

Bob Hughes | Reply 27.06.2015 23:45

Syd Banks would say, keep it simple. Editing with that in mind might enhance your understanding.

Jonelle 28.06.2015 00:25

Thanks Bob. This for me wasn't anything that complicated, but just another way that occurred to me for how my thoughts are not who I am.

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05.09 | 16:09

Lovely to hear from you Sharon! And thank you for the question. This website has limited space for comments, so I hopefully it's OK to send you an email. 😊

05.09 | 05:52

Hi Jonelle, just started reading this site-thank you so much. I have a question I hope you can answer for me: are emotions & feelings the same thing?

07.08 | 12:02

How beautiful. Your friend is so lucky to have you. ❤️

07.08 | 12:00

Thank you Andie! Would be lovely to catch up! ❤️

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