Before gaining insight into this spiritual mystery of life after coming across the Three Principles, I didn't yet know that there was such a thing as a spiritual truth to life. I thought
I was simply a human being, left all on my own to navigate my life with my inherent circumstances and the ways of the world... the rights, the wrongs, the good, the bad, the way things should be, and the way things shouldn't be.
Through my insight however, I realized the spiritual nature of life and the spiritual neutrality in EVERYTHING, including people and money. I saw that although there was this apparent concrete world
of rights and wrongs, there was also always at the spiritual level, a divinity and perfection in everything that can be experienced.
Now, in my human "Jonelle-ness",
I don't live in the 100% 24/7 felt awareness of the spiritual nature of life... seeing and feeling all as divine, revelling in the game of life, and resting in peaceful acceptance of all as it is.
Instead, I live most of the time with the experience of my personal needs, expectations, and perceptions, as if they are truth. I still navigate my life with ideas of right, wrong, good, bad, should, and should not, including my
ideas and experience regarding people and money.
But, there's always a part of me that knows and remembers the deeper spiritual truth. It reminds me that although
I'm playing this game of life with all sorts of securities and insecurities about money, and about the world, and about others, and about myself, and having those thoughts and feelings changing from moment to moment... I have the potential in any moment to
see any of it and all of it from the perspective of the divine. I now have a very clear understanding of how limited my view often is, because I've experienced something infinitely different, infinitely expansive, and infinitely, unconditionally, impersonally
Prior to this understanding, I really thought there were people who selfishly charged outrageous fees for their goods or services and didn't have compassion
for the less fortunate, and I really thought there were people who were unfairly overly compensated for the "work" they did compared to others, and I really thought there were people who were being incongruent in their apparent beliefs and values versus their
actions in financial matters, and I gave all of it all sorts of meaning and significance and permanence.
And, in the limited world of temporary, continually changing
form, there can be grains of truth to be found in all of these thoughts, but...
How does hanging on to any of this thinking make me feel in the moment?
If it comes with a feeling of tightness or discomfort or some sort of physical tension, I can guess that my insecure ego is the current limited story teller appearing in my mind,
and that it's giving me a very limited, one-sided picture.
If instead, it comes with a feeling of relaxed curiosity or humour or neutral observation without much thinking
around it, I can guess that I have a bit more clarity... that I'm closer to truth.
The difference for me is that I still think many of those things, but now there's
a part of me that more often tends to catch how I'm feeling, which helps me see how clear or unclear I am in the moment. And, at some level, I always know or remember the "practical applications" of this understanding of the spiritual nature of thought and
...that the situation involving people or money isn't ever only the way I THINK it is in this moment
...that I can see (and feel) anything regarding people or money, including an infinite number of different perspectives than I'm seeing/feeling right now
...that everyone is always doing their best with their believed limited thinking in each changing moment (including me)
...that any icky
feeling I may have from my personal judgment of unfairness regarding people and money (what is wrong, what should be different, etc.) is simply the experience of my insecure ego (my illusory sense of separate self)
...and that in any moment, I truly could see any of it and all of it as perfect... as divine.
All of this doesn't stop me from
believing or acting out of my personal, made up, beloved (and sometimes not so beloved) craziness, including attempting to right apparent wrongs, and probably more often just being judgy and righteous, but...
Whenever I somehow remember (and feel) again the spiritual truth of life...
...I get to let go of the significance of whatever
I think is "wrong"
...or I get to be humanly OK with temporarily feeling judgmental and righteous
...or I get to drop my judgments and all the stress they bring
...or I get to drop the need to figure it out so I can feel better
...or I get to fall back into a state of internal peace and acceptance
...or I get to see a neutral
situation for which I can apply personal actions of common sense as needed
...or I get to remember
that my sense of security can never come from money
...or I get to be kinder to myself and others, no matter my sense of their incongruent financial abundance, and
no matter how I happen to judge myself or others in comparison.
I get to lean more toward love and understanding for myself and everyone else, and that's a wonderfully
graceful perspective of life to more often get to live in.